My Life My Story

Satisfied but not entirely pleased....

2007-06-06T17:02:00.000+08:00

The RESULTS are out. Alhamdullilah I passed. My GPA points have improved and is the highest among the other GPA points I got before this. Though I didn't get to crossover to B.A. programme...I am satisfied...I did what I aimed to achieve and that is a Diploma In Education. Insyallah kalau ada rezeki....perhaps I will pursue the degree programme but not in the near future. No income for 2 yrs means no money to pay car loan, pay bills and ESPECIALLY NO $$$ for retail therapy and pampering myself and my loved ones....so thanks but NO THANKS!
Lastly, I miss my sweetcakes!!!!(that's my bf not food ok)

A long due update....

2007-06-04T01:29:00.000+08:00

The LOVE has gone to India for for his sch attachment for a WEEK. I already miss him so much. Can't wait to see him next Mon...

Oh and speaking abt the LOVE aka my wonderful driver cum driver instructor...I am so not goin to drive w/o him beside me for this whole week!
I almost got into an accident today, while I was driving my parents and Siti, to send my parents home(coincidentally Siti and me got invited to the same wedding as my dad...my dad was invited by the guy's side while Siti and me by the girls side). It wasn't my fault coz I was happily driving in my own lane when this STUPID and I really mean DUMBASS OF AN IDIOT lorry driver went into my lane from the left side of my car...we would have crashed...even worst, got sandwiched between the lorry and a Hyundai Tucson which was on my right. I was really caught by surprise that my reflex action was to avoid getting sandwiched and squeezed in while speeding in btw the 2 vehicles...that I didn't even let out a small honk! In the car it felt like the super silent slow-mo replay u see on TV...except in this slow mo...i was the one who was quickly moving furiously trying to get my car to safety....
The rest of the day went quite well....oh except the part where Siti and I got lost trying to get to Vivocity....u see it's not that I can't read a map...I can...I just can't do it while driving!And Siti...well...errr.....let's just say I had to park the car at IKEA(yes...that far!) for a few mins to look at the map and identify where exactly to look at in the map....other than that I had a wonderful time spending the rest of the evening with Siti...and to Nora, my dearest bestie, I will see u soon and this time, MR ZAMIR AND U will drive me around in ur new Selphy...let my Panda rest for a while ok?hehe...Lin and my sec sch geng...if u'r reading this, I can't wait to hang out with u people again...and my Laling Su...once payday arrives u are first on my meeting list!
See, in times when u'r love's not around(or even when he is actually ard) to b with u...girlfriends are the one u can count out...and no matter how ironic it sounded when sumone once typed, "never dump girlfriends"..it is ACTUALLY TRUELY agreeable...except I guess u gotta find the RIGHT girlfriends.

As for work slash school....I went to the new sch that I hv been to posted to and let's just say I was overwhelmed...not just by the sch but also by the workload I will have to face....I will be teaching P3, P4, P5 Higher Mly and P6 Basic Mly...dat would equal to...a very huge pounding headache at the end of each day....especially with the basic Mly crew...I can only imagine for now...That's not all, I have a BABY project that I'm in charge of...I will be the i/c for the Hari Raya concert....and right now I hv no bloody idea wat to do coz I need to make this one interesting since the sch is sooooo ON....anybody got any suggestions??

Oh well I still hv 3 weeks in June to enjoy my hols....and I'm gonna make it worth it......(imagine a toast) to more late nights and retail therapy!

2007-05-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

Goodbye practicum school....
Missing the P4 & P5 kiddos....
Missing the fellow trainee teachers...especially my b***hing partner...
Missing the morning walk to school...my only form of exercise....
But especially missing the hot milo & omelette toast....hehee.....

Spidey 3

2007-05-06T21:13:00.000+08:00

Spend my Sat with the love...
Caught Spidey 3(caught it at Sunplaza coz all the cinemas at town were fully booked)
And I cried...somewhere near the end of the show....
Ok I shall not spoil it for those of u who have yet to watch it....
Spidey 3 ROCKS!

No Worries....

2007-05-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

I finally spend quality time with The Love. No lesson plans to worry about and boy, that felt great!

Initially we wanted to go to East Coast but we melencong for a while to IKEA @ Tampines coz I saw the building while on TPE and remembered I've been wanting to go there but never had the time to. To my surprise, the parking was FREE!That's one motivation to make me come again. Still, I prefered Bukit Merah's IKEA...mcm more organised gitu....Then off we went to East Coast to have a walk by the beach, then ate at Gelare.Had the chocolate chip waffles with cookies & cream & chocolate ice cream....yummy!

While eating at Gelare, I asked CT to join us with her bf.Been some time since I met her. After ice cream, CT's bf had to leave and so there were 3.

The reason we were at East Coast was b'coz I wanted to give my Panda a carwash and interior cleaning. This SPC near East Coast provides a good car wash and interior cleaning and when I say interior cleaning, I mean, tyre shine, dashboard & seats cleaning, and vacuuming. All for just $12. I have never seen my Panda that clean and shiny...not even if I washed it myself.

Our last stop was Suntec's Starbucks for some nice coffee and good talk plus cam-whoring(The Love included) then I sent The Love home, then CT and finally myself home....wonderful Labour Day spent with wonderful people!

Best sungguh....

2007-04-30T23:49:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday was e 1st Saturday that I did not bump into any student...but I did bump into a colleague....mcm tak sah gitu kalau tak meet up with sumone related to the practicum sch... Was buying sumting at d new AMK Hub and that's when I realise the interchange has moved! Finally I dun have to walk so far just to take d bus home....best gitu queue up at d new interchange...jakun sorang2 lah kan....leh shopping then when I'm tired I just have to take d lift or escalator down and I can take e bus home.One minus point though...the 2 buses I can take home is too far apart so I cannot practise my Kiasu-ism....if one bus arrives earlier than e other...run to e other bus queue if u're not in e queue already...hahaa....yes ...as wat Rendra like to tell me"U kan kiasu!"...*blush* Tomorrow's a holiday....and wen wed arrives i dun have lessons coz the list compre exams r on....wohoo...no lesson plans for that day...just hv to do revision with P5 on thurs and mark P4's homework....before revising with them....best gitu....workload dah makin kurang....Happy Labour Day people!

I'm Back....

2007-04-26T21:21:00.000+08:00

Ok I'm back after more than a month of M.I.A.... Finally all my lesson observations are done...Now to wait for the results and The Posting...yes the posting to the school that I might be teaching in for the next 3 yrs!!!I've decided to leave it to fate for my posting coz I didn't apply to return to my practicum school...practically b'coz they have sufficient Malay teachers. Practicum's gonna end soon...10 more days to be exact!!I'm gonna miss my studs(students). But then again since we live so near each other, I think I'll be seeing them often. In fact some of us live so near each other we're practically neighbours!!OH and I've declared Saturday as BUMP INTO STUDENT(S) DAY.....dah mcm kebiasaan gituk every Saturday, while walking back from tuition I will hear"Eh Cikgu Nura! Kak/Abang Cikgu Nura!!"....haiyo! And speaking of students, the latest virginia tech shooting kinda made me think about the korean boy that i'm tutoring right now....practically coz he is smart and he speaks English with a funny accent...that i have to always correct his pronounciation everytime he opens his mouth to speak English...imagine i say ORANGE...and he say OR-RAN-GEE... Enough about students, I miss hanging out with my friends....I know she's not gonna read this but CT AKU MISS KAU!!! Oh and a warm welcome to Qarin Adani, daughter of Nur Fadzlin, my ex-sec schmate. Alhamdullilah, Lin, u delivered normally....hope the gift I gave u is useful.... My love, Mr Ren, sorry if I've been cranky and moody. Thanks for being so patient with me....pls continue doing so....can't wait to spend the weekend with you!I'll try to finish my lesson plans earlier...I said I'll TRY ok....hehee.... One last thing, I dunno why but I just noticed the ex-OIans or MIans seem to be in the limelight lately....Miss Singapore Universe 1st Runner-up, Joey, was from OI and I remember her as a very good netball player....today I flipped the papers and I see Ratna's column in The New paper....I'm so happy for these peeps & their success... Me?Well i'm just happy being a Malay Language teacher...would love to be more than that or have more than that but like wat my mum loves to say,ni semua rezeki masing-masing.... Till my next entry then....gotta get back to lesson planning...dah cakap nak try mesti buat....kalau tak nanti orang kata cakap tak serupa buat!
*Smiles*

Grrrr....

2007-03-12T00:41:00.000+08:00

Ok I am pissed! Never have I been cheated of my tuition fees....this agency of mine took all my tuition fees when they should only collect 1/2 of it as commission. I called them and they said they would call me back. When I managed to get them, their excuse was that they wanted to issue a receipt to the customer that showed the actual tuition fee amount. They would sent me the money thereafter. I've been waiting for more than a week and still no tuition fees. When I called them up again, they refuse to pick up.So the love helped me and called them up using his handphone. Turns out the company name thay gave me did not exist and they go by another name. They have so many telephone numbers...I think I have about 6 or 7 of them....all of them are diverted to the same voicemail. The person who answers the phone sounds the same but goes by different names. What else can I conclude other than this might just be a cheating or fraud tuition agency. If they still do not contact me by tomorow, I might just pay a visit to CASE....

2007-03-08T12:38:00.000+08:00

Bloody Neverending Lesson Plans....

TP (no not Traffic Police test but Teaching Practice)

2007-02-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

The 1st day of TP was not as organised as the previous teaching assistantship(TA). They weren't really prepared for us. I was told to come before 7.20am and report to my CT and just follow her around for her classes. I had no teacher table for myself, no pass to enter the staff room and no briefing by any of the people in charge. But I did get d same CT who was very particular abt my dressing*sigh*.
Today on the other hand, i got my own teacher table and the pass to enter the school, confirmed my time table and had a short briefing by the mentor. Oh and there's eye candy in school!Finally, something to look forward to during my practicum!(sayang, if u'r reading this try not 2 be jealous ya,it's just a cheap form of motivation) this eye candy is actually a Malay guy who is in d PGDE program and he is cute lah! One of the teachers were asking me if I was single or attached coz she thought he could b a potential candidate as my bf.*LOLx*
Well, I think I'm gonna do just fine for TP...insyallah...amin!Hope my other schoolmates are coping well too.

No More Please....

2007-02-24T02:12:00.000+08:00

My face is having a breakout galore! And I can't seem to be able to put a hold on them. It's like today one new one emerges and after a few days after it becomes small(okay I squeezed some of them), another new one emerge. Arghhhhh!
I guess the stress of practicum is getting to me. Seriously I think I need a break from hunting for long sleeve loose fitting clothes. I have become so obsessed about what I'll be wearing for practicum, practically because during my last attachment there, they said I didn't dress professionally. It's not like I walk around in a tube and mini skirt!They expected me to wear the baju kurung since I am a Malay teacher. So K-O-L-O-T (or old-fashioned in English)!
So just to 'please' them this time, I decided to be more careful of my dressing.I am not spending money to buy new baju kurung because I dun think they're worth it since I'll only use them for this 10 weeks. So as a replacement, I decided to have a wardobe overhaul. No more short sleeved top or skirts. Just long sleeved, loose fitting clothes, pants and perhaps long skirts. Wardrobe OVERHAUL indeed!I keep telling myself, 10 weeks Fizah and this will all be over. Insyallah!

I just have to mention this one

2007-02-21T05:50:00.000+08:00

It's kinda a wee bit late to write about this but what the heck lah!I want my love to know that I do appreciate the small things he does.
About a week before valentine's day, the love actually wrote a poem for 1 of Class 95's valentine's day contest. The winner gets this dinner voucher and a trip to i- can't- remember-where...who cares lah anyway...coz even though he didn't win the contest, his poem got featured on Class 95's website some time ago along with some other poems that DJ Yaz thought was also good. I'm just so touch by this small yet sweet jesture of his. He told me that he couldn't afford a lavish present this valentine's so he wanted to win this one. Silly boy!I dun need a lavish gift! I just wanna spend quality time with u that valentine...of which we did. Thanks for the beautiful valentine's day present sweetcakes but I thought the poem was also if not more beautiful(coz got my name mah!haha).
The poem is no longer on Class 95's webbie but I manage to get a screen shot of it. Here it is...

Lastly, thank you dear love....it was very sweet of you...

2007-02-19T02:33:00.000+08:00

One Of Those Random Conversations...

D other day sumone asked me what actually happened between me and a grp of friends of mine bcoz it seems i have totally drifted apart from them. I didn't really know how to answer but I gave her my most honest answer. You see I have my flaws, just like everyone else. And sumtimes I know or learn about them when people point it out and it has to b pointed out clearly or I would just end up not getting d msg u r sending or getting d wrong idea. So d prob btw these grp of friends of mine and me was me n my flaw or perhaps flaws. Naturally, I apologise but to them the damage was done. And it was done so extensively that d bond was no longer there. So in other words, I was outta d grp. Seems weird how it felt like I was in a pri or sec sch situation where d 'i fren u' and 'i dun wanna fren u' things were a norm. I tot as adults or perhaps young adults such things no longer occur. Guess I was wrong. Not that I hv this kinda prob when I was in pri n sec sch, prob, this is d FIRST time I encountered such a prob. So honestly, I was left clueless. But thanks to some frens who were there for me, i manage to find my way thru. So this fren of mine whom I had a conversation with, sorta gave me a reminiscence of the incident.If I could turn back time, I would definitely make things right and try to b more aware of what I say and d effect it has on those involved but alas, all is too late. Still I bear no grudges for what has happened and though things r not as they were between us, there's still a part of me who wish we could still be as what we used to be. For now I'm just glad I have friends around me who accepts me as who I am and my flaws as well. To those who has always been there for me, I thank you. To those who became the topic of this entry, I thank you too for the experience you gave me. And so I have been humbled....

A visit to the vet...

2007-02-18T23:29:00.000+08:00

I brought my pet rabbit, Lil Bit, to the vet on Fri. The poor bunny had overgrowned teeth. One of his lower front teeth had overgrown and is almost touching his nose.So I brought him to visit d vet for d first time. Mr Lil Bit was excited and amazed I guess. He couldn't sit still in his travelling basket. And when he was in d car on the way to the vet, he pee-ed in d basket and spattered it on my seat. Urgh!But that's ok,I still love him...he is after all my fav rabbit.
After 10 minutes of struggling just to get him to stay still, the vet managed to get a look at his teeth and told me he had to hv his teeth trimmed. He also had infection under his chin and one of his inner teeth was growing sideways towards his inner cheeks. Ouch!I can just imagine how painful that would be.
So Mr Lil Bit is now on antibiotics and 3 other medications. He'll be operated on once he gets fatter....operated eh bukan sembelih!I hope he gets thru it...insyallah....

D day after Valentine's....

2007-02-15T15:00:00.000+08:00

Opened my eyes and realise it was 10am!My class starts at 10.30am!
And so I was late...and since I was already late I might as well not turn up b'coz the journey to sch takes abt 1 1/2hr and me getting ready abt 1/2hr....so i pulled my blanket closer and returned to sleep....bye bye last day in NIE!

I can't seem to fall asleep!!!

2007-02-14T04:14:00.000+08:00

I can't seem to fall asleep

No matter how I try to close my eyes, say some prayers,listen to soft music etc....my body just refuse to go into sleep mode....and d worst part of it is I have to wake up at 6.30am...what time is it now?it is 4 am!2 n 1/2 hrs more left for sleep....and my eyes r still wide open looking at this computer screen....
I guess that double dose of expresso really bloody work!I had wanted to prevent myself from falling asleep during tuition so this 'genius' decided to order a machiatto with dopio expresso....and now the anti-sleep potion is really preventing me from sleep....and so I blog...
It is valentine's day today!!well i am hoping for a simple one this yr....maybe just homecooked meal by ur's truly....dine by d beach....no flowers(i'm kinda getting tired of the flower thing)...and a simple but meaningful prezzie....hmmm.....judging from The Love....i guess not!I saw a name card from a jewellery shop in his wallet just now(I once checked his wallet(with his permission of coz) and am definitely confident that that was nvr there and it shud nvr b there unless he works for d shop....or he has a fren from there...or worst...he got to know a girl from there....ok i'm getting way off here....
I know I shud b delighted but d prob is I did not get anything for him!!!Well except for some valentine coupons....arghhh!!Now i gotta wrack my brains and think about what to buy....grrr...Happy Valentine's Day Fiz...

This blog is named chokoholic because....

2007-02-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

Firstly chocoholic was taken and mostly b'coz I love chocolates and nothing else can bring me a smile to my face when I'm down except for chocolates....well...good quality chocolate only though...not those super sweet ones with very little cocoa in them...my all time fav...GODIVA chocolates....